Lost already

Navigation has got me completely, ashamedly, LOST.
Understanding?
Unavailable, when I'm unsure of my desired destination,
and even my current lodging location

The creeping fear that I'm,
Perpetually lost,
disjointed
Looking from one map
to another,
confused by all the symbols.
I DON'T HAVE THE KEY
Lost already before even finding me
Who
Why
What
Where am I?

Always chased and colliding with a frustrated
How
do i?
How
can i?

Will I?

I don't have a clue how to solve the mysteries of my mind,
It's to difficult when my clammy hands are tied,
Still, I must find out how to find me,
but I'm blind.